Most of my drawings come from a desire to put some lightheartedness and warmth back into the world, but this particular piece comes from hurt. For me, the first half of this year has been defined by unexpected losses, figuring out how to grieve and what to do when life happens. I’d prefer to let this piece speak for itself and think it allows for all kinds of personal interpretations.
I usually like to have a full graphite piece in the end, but I haven’t illustrated anything quite like this before and knew I would be making a lot of changes and figuring things out along the way. This means that, even if it felt a little uncomfortable, everything was drawn separately. The girl, the beams of light, the leaves, all done apart from each other. I didn’t end up using all the leaves I drew, but wanted to have a lot of options to avoid copying and pasting them around in this case.
It’s always interesting to see the end product when you try something new and feel unsure of what you’re doing in the process. I’ve heard from other illustrators that the uncertainty can be vital.